Growing up I didn't value myself. I wasn't exactly taught, literally or demonstratively, and I really didn't know how. Flipping through my film roll of life experiences this morning, it's evident. In my memories many and various types of interactions I had through to my 20th year, took even more of that value away. Like a bank account being depleted, I dreamed of better, but didn't realize that I was actually deserving. Wow eh.
I’m someone who has always had difficulty putting myself out there. For 64 days, since November 1st, I’ve done exactly that. Shown up + showcased.
My Husband had emergency spinal surgery at the end of October, mid covid. I lost my brain for a couple days. I was messy. I over thought and worst case scenarioed while he was in the hospital, and for a few days when he was back. Non functional really.
Going along with my current plan to have three glorious studio days each week, I also want to challenge myself to utilize many of these beads by years end. Gentle reminder that there's only 3 months left - and we either make the time, or we loose it. Perhaps the last quarter of 2020 is the time to challenge yourself in some regard as well.
I have a talent, and to this day, I still have trouble letting people know. I should be shouting from the rooftops, and sharing this creative journey more. I’ve come to realize that. The other thing I should be sharing is the secret that we are all creative beings. We all have the ability to make wild transformations. Trust your instincts and make your own masterpiece, because that’s exactly how it’s made.